Dear friends,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Today, I’m doing nothing much. But all I have planned is swing, school, working on my Halloween costume (post about that soon to come :D), and maybe some studying with friends. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I’ve been feeling a little down lately. I haven’t been able to write as many songs, but always some. Last week I either had some allergies or caught a mild cold, which wasn’t fun considering the fact that it was rather difficult to sing. <\/p>\n\n\n\n\n\n\n\n
I’ve had a craving for mac and cheese lately. Like that GOOD, fancy restaurant mac and cheese. It just sounds gosh-dang-good! <\/p>\n\n\n\n
It’s also just been one of those…. bleh months. Not weather wise (it’s been beautiful here recently). I think I’m just a little on edge now because it’s my birthday soon. I’ll be turning twelve, so it’s my last year as an actual “kid.” <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I’ll be a teenager, and as overwhelmed as I’ve already been, more responsibility seems impossible. I don’t know how much anxiety comes with being a teenager. I don’t know anything yet because I haven’t experienced it for myself. And in a way, I’m excited for changes. With every bad thing comes a good thing, as I like to believe. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I wish I could freeze time and go back to that four year old at Fashion Week for a second. Just so she could teach me something, something I’ve forgotten. Because I know I’m forgetting something. Maybe that something is to not worry so much. To be myself, not to be scared of losing people, and to just have some dang fun. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Everything that happened when I was little, I’ll always carry that with me (in a good way), but I think it’s time for me to do some new things. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Last year wrecked me, but also helped me. So, so many bad things with a few good things. All I know, is that this year has been great. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
New house, new puppy, and new friends. With all that came a new me. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I gained some of that Mayhem back, with all her fru-fru-y-ness and confidence, I feel ready to take on the world. Kind of…. once I get the anxiety thing figured out \ud83d\ude09 <\/p>\n\n\n\n
But seriously! Look out, ’cause I’m coming in hot (both ways ;P) <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Xo, <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Syd. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
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